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Its few highlights...

Love yourself first

Love yourself first

Love yourself first,

At very first place. 

Its just me forcing myself to always remember that i really need to love myself before anyone else because no one will. No one is willing to stay. They departed.

Things falling apart
People leaving
Things changed
Time wasted
Dreams broken
Leaving me broken

Completely broken 

Inside and outside 

I think I'm doing fine, jadi sponge absorb everything. Even though rasa dah berat tapi anggap jelah macam hukuman dan yeh padan muka. Takpa Asyura. Berdoa, berusaha dan bersabar. Sabar tu kena paling baaaaaaaaaanyak.

Its not easy, I'm telling you. I had to learn how to love myself, how to love my riddles when I speak, how to love my short legs, how to deal with my own silly-self, how to control my nervous, how to love my tired eyes. I had to do everything on my own, with my own tears in one shot. All for one. Because its going to be once. Once in a lifetime; for someone who isn't worth the fight. 

Takpalah, sangat cukup untuk aku sedar siapa aku and bawak diri aku ke tempat yang sepatutnya. Betapa hidup ni banyak rahsia yang diri kita sendiri tak boleh rungkai, tak boleh faham. Banyaknya perkara yang aku missed-out tapi takpe perlahan merangkak ke dalam komuniti sosial. 

Minda complicated terulung macam aku ni bukan semua orang reti nak faham. I'm immature yeyeye then what? Semua manusia, dan aku pun tak terkecuali; membuat setiap perkara/perlakuan dengan signifikan tersendiri.

What an everything-goes-wrong semester. Dahla kena tinggal tanpa reason kukuh, pastu kena tinggal demi kena tinggal dan kena tinggal lagi. Eh watak apa ni, dah la orang tak suka, problematic as ever, careless,tak boleh stop jadi loser ke Asyura????